Christmas

Well, I have not wrote in a while, so I thought I better do a wee bit tonight!
I am not a great lover of Christmas, even though it is my last year properly at home I thought it would be awesome and I was gathering excitement. Sadly, my joy was smashed by an unfortunate and upsetting tragedy. My boyfriends first cousin died in a car accident during the week. It is really heart breaking, but we will get through this situation together.

I am going to the funeral with him on Thursday, I know it will be extremely upsetting but we just got to be strong and I am going to be there for paddy every step of the way.

Other news, santa was awfully kind to me even tho I asked for nothing, it was nice all the same!
Baby Molly,paddy and my wonderful nan just make my Christmas, a festive occasion I am not found of.

Hopefully rest of the hols will turn out ok, agri science and homework to bury my mind in, regardless the show must and will go on.

Good night folks, ally x

I don’t no how to explain it when someone can relate to a poem I wrote and instantly know what to do with their situation. It’s refreshing to help someone:) I think sometimes advice won’t work no matter how much you explain to someone unless it clicks inside them.
I just had that moment with a friend, I showed him 2 of my poems and he got guidance from them. I truly didn’t expect it. But it has made me so happy I could help him, even if it was even small.

Not the remedy

It’s tearing me up seeing you,
Such an emotional mess
Self- destructing
And cut up

My words fail me
Iv been threw tough too
But you can’t see past tomorrow
Not could I

But now I do
And I hope you will too
I’m uncertain with this,
Whatever will I do?

It’s not easy for me either
I love and care for you
I can’t bare seeing you like this
How can I even stop this

The pains consuming us both
Deep within me,
It effects me like you’ll never know
I get caught up in caring

You’re not just hurting yourself
It effects everyone
Present and future
When will this ever end

It’s not even the correct answer darling.

Perceptions

Turning the other cheek
You slice open your middle
Seeing you in your light
I never thought,
Assumptions automatically formed
But lacking evidence
The light shines through
And now I can clearly see
Fogged perceptions vanish
I know your inner better now,
Your gooey middle
The surrounds mellow you out
It has finally come apparent
The truth always speaks

Invisible

Invisibility,
Creeping’ through the mind
Slipping between your fingers
Vanishing from your thoughts
Callin’ out
Cries being neglected
If you were my mum,
I’d have you up for child abuse
Makin’ me feel unwanted
Worthless, pointless
It’s not fair
For I am a human being