I don’t no how to explain it when someone can relate to a poem I wrote and instantly know what to do with their situation. It’s refreshing to help someone:) I think sometimes advice won’t work no matter how much you explain to someone unless it clicks inside them.
I just had that moment with a friend, I showed him 2 of my poems and he got guidance from them. I truly didn’t expect it. But it has made me so happy I could help him, even if it was even small.

Not the remedy

It’s tearing me up seeing you,
Such an emotional mess
Self- destructing
And cut up

My words fail me
Iv been threw tough too
But you can’t see past tomorrow
Not could I

But now I do
And I hope you will too
I’m uncertain with this,
Whatever will I do?

It’s not easy for me either
I love and care for you
I can’t bare seeing you like this
How can I even stop this

The pains consuming us both
Deep within me,
It effects me like you’ll never know
I get caught up in caring

You’re not just hurting yourself
It effects everyone
Present and future
When will this ever end

It’s not even the correct answer darling.

Perceptions

Turning the other cheek
You slice open your middle
Seeing you in your light
I never thought,
Assumptions automatically formed
But lacking evidence
The light shines through
And now I can clearly see
Fogged perceptions vanish
I know your inner better now,
Your gooey middle
The surrounds mellow you out
It has finally come apparent
The truth always speaks

Invisible

Invisibility,
Creeping’ through the mind
Slipping between your fingers
Vanishing from your thoughts
Callin’ out
Cries being neglected
If you were my mum,
I’d have you up for child abuse
Makin’ me feel unwanted
Worthless, pointless
It’s not fair
For I am a human being

Player

I smile
hold your hand
to set you free
wispear in your ear

its ok baby
i still love you

you dont know,
how much
you hurt me

we carry on as if it didnt matter
ignore all you done to me

baby your tearing
me apart. . . .

just another player
i know it
words so charming
boy you had alot of practice

i cant let go
escape your poisionous grasp
tortureous games

you lul me back in false hope
deep in your games
theres no gettin’ away

-inspired rap/poetry-

Realscing me
From myself
Mom,your killin me
With your demons

Tryna survive
Thru the beats
Snortin while cryin
Between these fallin outs

Passed on the floor
In your vomite
Disgust me
Take a look

Tip the bottle
Another sup
All gone
With drawel symptoms

Breakin your insides
Its all you cared
Nothing else
Not even me

How should i feel
You,like a baby
Caring for you
Pickin at the pieces

Not understanding
This ‘life’
Relyin on me
Not forgettin the smokes

My minds racin
This evil place
I call it home
Aint no escaping

Gettin away from you
Bringin me down
Nasty side
But I’m in too deep

-I wrote this about a friend-

These scars
You make
A slight cut
Realise your pain

Make you feel better
But for how long
Until you slice again
More the next time

Teenaged years
Unaware of reality
Makin little or no sense
You didnt think

Years to come
Look at your arms
Your handy work
A constant reminder

Cant hide it
Long sleves
Cluthching tight
Shielding it from the open

I know
You dont see
The further
Whats to come

My friend
I wish you could
See what i see
A little girl needing care

These cuts
Only show
They dont stop the pain
Just a bad momento

Please stop
It won’t help
Im here
Just put it down

Cry it out
Talk to me
Ill hold you tight
Mommas here

Metal armour

I’m falling apart
Its all around me
The pain
I see it all

Constant occurence
No break,
To heal
Gain strength

I had to be strong
Hold it all,
Upon my shoulders
For everybodies sake

Amoungst the dark
I break down
Be weak
Burst into tears

Out in the light
Like a shield
The pain,
Bounces off

Apparently I’m strong
You’ve no idea
Shattered inside
I hold it all tight

More bad happens
I pretend it dont matter
Carry on,
Wearing my metal armour

I used love to write poetry, express myself in a positive way when I used be feeling not myself, let’s just say. It took me 2 years to fix myself and I must thank poetry and nature for turning around my attitude to life:)